Tactile writing

Kathryn Schulz is one of my favorite journalists. Here’s why:

“Imagine a race in which eight people are lined up on a track, holding on to the same long elastic ribbon. The starting gun fires and the people start running. The two in the middle are the fastest and the two on the ends are the slowest, so after a while the middle two are far ahead and the ribbon looks like this: > . If the race kept going and the runners’ speeds remained constant, the two middle runners would eventually lap the others, and the ribbon would cross over itself. The longer the race lasted, the more tangled the ribbon would become.”

That’s a simple illustration of a complex subject, the solar magnetic field, which underpins her recent feature on how a major solar storm would affect, oh, I don’t know, every single thing about human life on Earth. It’s a gripping read, although I still don’t think Schulz went far enough in describing the absolute terror and agony that would fall across our society in that event, but we can set that aside for now.

This ability to illustrate ideas in simple, tangible ways is a critical skill for journalists, especially those feature writers working with longform magazine formats. This recent example from Schulz stood out to me because she did the same thing in her Pulitzer Prize-winning piece on future ruptures of the Cascadia subduction zone, another complex subject!

“Take your hands and hold them palms down, middle fingertips touching. Your right hand represents the North American tectonic plate, which bears on its back, among other things, our entire continent, from One World Trade Center to the Space Needle, in Seattle. Your left hand represents an oceanic plate called Juan de Fuca, ninety thousand square miles in size. The place where they meet is the Cascadia subduction zone. Now slide your left hand under your right one. That is what the Juan de Fuca plate is doing: slipping steadily beneath North America. When you try it, your right hand will slide up your left arm, as if you were pushing up your sleeve. That is what North America is not doing. It is stuck, wedged tight against the surface of the other plate.”

Incredible.

Rats

I’m a free speech absolutist, but the upcoming Kyle Rittenhouse tour stop at Kent State University is worth shouting down for two reasons:

  • The cycle of heinous right-wing speaker -> excitable left-wing campus backlash is exhausting. It’s a tale as old as time. The loser college Republicans like to bring in their dime-a-dozen racist gun nut celebrities to pander moronically to the libertarian set, and all of this riles up the progressive student groups, scattered to the wind most days, bringing them out in full force for an easy target of protest. These non-events pass for “news” and everyone walks home a winner. The Republican idiots got their names in the paper as champions of free speech and the progressive crowd builds their social media clout as champions of social justice. It’s a manufactured moment, and both sides are giddy to play their part.
  • And perhaps no one more than Rittenhouse better represents the Age of the Dipshit in our contemporary political scene. You can trace Rittenhouse’s role in the Kenosha “unrest” directly to the Jan. 6, 2021, protests at the U.S. Capitol. It’s over-the-top cosplay with savage consequences. I’m not trying to downplay the seriousness of these idiots, but they are idiots and they should be described as such. What most local media reports and the Kent State “statement” itself have gotten wrong is that this event is not a free speech play. It’s nothing more than tacit approval for the Age of the Dipshit, an acknowledgement to the student body and the Northeast Ohio community at large that, yes, this is the sort of clown who opinions we value on topics as incendiary and, sure, important as the Second Amendment in 21st century America. It’s remarkable that we’ve let it get to this point. Free speech my ass. The Age of the Dipshit is bright and glorious!

    Business books

    I’m reading Conscious Business by Fred Kofman and Scaling People by Claire Hughes Johnson now. Johnson was on Tim Ferriss’s podcast recently, and she recommended the Kofman almost as a prerequisite to her own book. Already I can tell they work well in tandem.

    Partly I’m reading these books to get a better grip on my own understanding of how a business grows. For years I separated my own editorial work from the broader aims of the businesses that have employed me. This wasn’t a mistake, I don’t think; most of my career was intentionally focused on subjects studied from a fairly independent vantage point. My goal was to examine my beat as intimately as I could. Turning my gaze inward to the publishing business felt like I was falling off my path and stumbling into areas beyond my understanding. As the years went on and the media business continued to disintegrate, I realized that eventually I’d have to learn a thing or two about the actual profits and losses that shape a business and a writer’s paycheck.

    I’m also interested in the X-as-a-metaphor-for-life angle. This is why I play golf, for instance. I enjoy gleaning lessons on how to live my life from more narrow subjects like golf or business. Those lessons are helpful for me, of course, but now they’ve taken on new dimensions as I begin to convey teaching moments to my daughter and, eventually to my son. Packaging those lessons in the form of a round of golf or a quarterly campaign at work makes them simple and easy to understand (for me), which gives me a shot at repackaging them for the language of childhood.

    Before Kofman gets into the elements of “conscious business” he briefly spends time defining “unconscious business.” You run into “unconscious business” all the time, surely at some point even on your own team. It’s a problem, but its traits are easy to spot.

    Unconscious business stems from bringing these attitudes to a group dynamic: unconditional blame, essential selfishness, ontological arrogance. Those attitudes beget negative behaviors like manipulative communication, narcissistic negotiation, negligent coordination. And those behaviors ultimately congeal into emotional incompetence.

    I especially like his phrasing for ontological arrogance, “the claim that things are the way you see them.” When you’re dealing with someone whose attitude is rooted in ontological arrogance, of course you’re going to get snagged by manipulative communication, narcissistic negotiation, and negligent coordination, that last one being “a perfect convergence of careless requests, groundless promises, fulfillment breakdowns, and ineffective complaints.”

    Why am I describing all this negativity? Well, to Kofman’s point, it is helpful to understand what you’re working against when you set out to write/read a book about developing better communication skills. But also, these attitudes and behaviors are not limited to the conference room! These concepts crop up in daily life all the time, and they’re the basis for a profound unhappiness.

    Happiness, of course, is not merely pleasure but something developed out of a sense of purpose and gratitude and broad-based satisfaction with imperfect but engaging conditions in life. So, what is unhappiness? I believe unhappiness, which is pervasive, perhaps more pervasive than unhappiness in American society, stems from a lack of purpose or a lack of understanding of one’s purpose. A complete misuse of agency, an inability to distinguish what can be controlled in life from what can’t be controlled. A deeply incurious mind. A self-imposed confusion, which metastasizes.

    Unhappiness is all around us. I believe that Kofman is not writing a book about growing a small business to profitability. From what I’ve read so far, he is writing a book about how to be happy, how to develop your mind as a countervailing force against unhappiness and attitudes like unconditional blame, essential selfishness, ontological arrogance.

    All right, so where’s the teaching lesson for the kiddo?

    We sing a lot of songs at home. Some of them are made up, others are classics. Louisa loves Tom Petty and R.E.M. and everything from Disney. She loves the old sing-alongs, and one that always gets her smiling is “If You’re Happy and You Know It.” She claps her hands and stomps her feet and pats her head and shouts “Hooray!” with the tune, and we can tell that, yes, she is happy and she knows it.

    It’s easy to run through the days without taking a beat to acknowledge your own happiness.

    Let enough days slip past and you risk losing that connection.

    This small act of gratitude and recognition can change your entire life.

    February freewrite

    Coffee and a “browned butter pecan bar” at Cafe Arnone this morning. This has become a little Saturday ritual: bae and the little one head off to ballet class, while I take an hour to chip away at the novel and write stuff like this right here. The pecan bar was lovely.

    I started reading Suttree by Cormac McCarthy last night, and I got sucked into the weirdly sublime textures of ca.-1951 Knoxville right away. It’s hard to believe that this book preceded the grisly terror of Blood Meridian. I mean, the sentence structures and the pacing are all of a piece, but the subject matter and setting just seems radically different. Maybe this is partly because until now I’d only ever read McCarthy’s Southwest oeuvre. Somehow the universe of Tennessee is just… like a polar opposite table setting for what I’d grown used to reading from him (bearing in mind that he did cut this teeth on Appalachian/Southern gothic influences like Faulker). At any rate, I’m looking forward to spending most of February with ol’ Sut. I’ve got a plane ride to New York City on March 1, and I love nothing more than reading a novel on an aeroplane; more than likely it’ll still be Suttree by that time.

    The first six weeks of the year have been incredibly busy M-F with work. There’s no real need to get into the details here, but I’m at one of those major crossroads in my career. My own disillusionment with the news media business has given me a lot to think about (e.g., if it’s not working as a reporter for like $50,000 a year, then what else can a vaguely journalistic career look like?). My foray into B2B media helped the salary quite a bit six years ago, but now even that platform is disintegrating into the void of advertising budgets and fragmented attention spans. So, what’ll it be? That’s perhaps a story for another day, but as I navigate this shift in my career, the days have been busier than ever.

    The point is that I allow myself some time and space each week for my own writing. This stuff. The novel. Freelance journalism (I’ve got a piece out Feb. 28!). Poetry. Lyrics. Whatever. That’s where I nourish my soul, as far as writing goes. The day job is ambitious and fulfilling, yes, but it’s just a paycheck. When I left Scene in 2018, that premise was something I promised myself. Let the job be the job; let the writing take you wherever you want it to.

    But my god, that pecan bar was something else.

    Ted Tapes 2024

    Say what you will about Goose, but their latest release is a truly compelling artistic and commercial decision. Ted Tapes 2024 is a generous act of faith, a vulnerable gesture to the fanbase. The compilation is essentially a three-hour series of live improv takes with their new drummer, Cotter Ellis. Rehearsal sessions. Tryouts.

    As the band wrote: “They were recorded solely for the purpose of reference, not intended for any kind of release. The instruments and microphones were rigged up quickly, and the playing was raw and free from any expectations.”

    So, why release them?

    The community response has been overwhelmingly positive, even after weeks of grim rumor mill nonsense following Ben Atkind’s unceremonious departure (and following what was seen as, overall, a lackluster 2023 for the band). Of course, the main thrust of the critical reception is: Well, what’s the new drummer’s deal? It’s been amazing to read through fans’ in-depth dissection of Ellis’s style (fans literally scrutinizing snare drum tightness, polyrhythmic decision-making, improvisatory communication). Not every band is lucky enough to have a fanbase that cares that much. Of course, there’s been a lot of shoot-from-the-hip troll comment bullshit, but overall the chatter has been incredibly insightful.

    The point, I think, is to lay the cards on the table and share something with the fans: Listen to this guy we just hired. Listen carefully and try to hear what we heard. Understand with an open heart why we dragged our band through this cataclysmic change and try to imagine with us the brighter future ahead.

    Goose is a young band primed for growth. It’s easy to poke fun at them as some sort of teeny-bopper jam band in Phish’s shadow, but, what the hell, they *are* a young band in the throes of early development. You’re either interested in the story or you’re not, and if you are you soon realize that it’s the same story you’re telling yourself about your own life: You are making your way through this world like everyone else, stumbling, rising each morning, embracing those you love and attempting slowly to build something new for your future, which is to say, attempting slowly to build something new for your past.

    Inside the hell of East Palestine: Unanswered questions, frustration and the lingering threat of toxic chemicals

    Note: This feature was originally published in February 2023 by the wonderful team at Grid. That website was later acquired by The Messenger, which by any objective account was a disastrous clickbait farm. I didn’t like that my work was under that URL, as opposed to the Grid aegis, but the desires of freelance journalists aren’t much of a priority out there. At any rate, The Messenger shit the bed as a going concern in January 2024. I feel terrible for the reporters and editors and designers who worked there, now left out in the cold by ridiculous corporate overlords. But good riddance.

    I’m reprinting my feature here in its entirety.

    EAST PALESTINE, Ohio — As the wind picked up here, on Wednesday, several thousand residents joined public officials, law enforcement officers and members of various news media in a long line leading to the local high school, where a highly anticipated town hall meeting awaited.

    By that point — 12 days after a Norfolk Southern train ran off the tracks on the east side of town, prompting an evacuation and a controlled burn of vinyl chloride, and dispersing a wave of other toxic chemicals into the environment — the 4,700 residents of this village were eager to translate that nightmare into plain English. Is their drinking water safe? Will their pets be all right? Will this disaster have any long-term health impacts on the population?

    These are straightforward questions with complicated answers.

    The residents of East Palestine and nearby communities are trying to square their lived experience — the evacuation, the sight of the toxic plume, the cloying odor drifting through the village — with public health officials’ insistence that the air and water is safe and contaminant-free as of now. Put simply, these families do not know how to plan for the near- or long-term future, and, in an already tenuous economic environment in rural Ohio, that level of uncertainty is a major problem. Even the basic question of who to trust is up for debate. In the midst of this calamity, who’s at the wheel?

    Outside the high school, as the crowd shuffled forward an inch at a time, East Palestine residents Cory and Dawn White traded stories with others in line. They were coming to this meeting in search of clarity about a lot of things — about the water quality, yes, but also about the nuances of soil sampling and about the recovery plans for the city. But, like anyone in attendance at the town hall that night could attest, nailing down an answer to most any question — health-related, environment-related, finance-related, you name it — is no easy task.

    “That’s the scary part,” Cory said. “Nobody knows what’s going to happen, and no one can give you answers.”

    The original plan for the evening had been a traditional town hall. But railway operator Norfolk Southern had urged Mayor Trent Conaway and his team to set up tables for various local and state agencies, letting a single file of residents filter through and ask questions directly, discreetly. Then, Norfolk Southern decided not to show up at all, citing “the growing physical threat to our employees and members of the community around this event stemming from the increasing likelihood of the participation of outside parties.” This did not go over well.

    As the gymnasium filled up, Conaway, himself clearly fatigued by the passing days, picked up a bullhorn and addressed the packed gym.

    “We’re here for answers,” he told the crowd. “The railroad did us wrong. So far, they’re working with us.” But he warned that if Norfolk Southern drops the ball and skirts accountability, he will be the “first in line to fight” for his community. Flanked by state officials and a U.S. congressman, Conaway attempted to answer a barrage of residents’ questions, including:

    • Why was the evacuation zone only a 1-mile radius? East Palestine Fire Chief Keith Drabick confirmed that this was based on the Department of Transportation Emergency Response Guidebook, most recently updated in 2020.
    • What is the timeline and scope of water and air testing? U.S. Environmental Protection Agency and Ohio EPA officials confirmed that testing is ongoing; the response is presently in the “emergency phase,” which will soon give way to the “remediation phase,” with air and water quality monitoring taking place throughout. “The remediation phase will take as long as it takes,” Ohio EPA Director Anne Vogel said. “We’ll be here as long as it takes.” (Further questions about specific testing plans submitted by Grid were not answered by the Ohio EPA as of Friday.)
    • What is killing the fish in the area? Kurt Kollar, an environmental specialist with the Ohio EPA, did say that high concentrations of butyl acrylate made their way into local water sources, like Leslie Run and Sulphur Run. The sheer concentration of that chemical led to the die-off, estimated at some 3,500 fish, according to the state, but Kollar insisted that the amount now found in the water is nearly undetectable and not a going concern for human consumption.
    • Is the drinking water safe? Should residents even be washing their clothes in the local water? The village has maintained that no contaminants have been found in the municipal wells, but Ohio Health Director Bruce Vanderhoff has encouraged residents on two occasions to drink bottled water.

    But there was little that anyone could do or say to soothe the simmering tension in the room. The central conceit that there is nothing wrong with the air or water quality, as confirmed by published air monitoring and water sampling tests from the Ohio EPA, leaves little room for residents to push back on the narrative. People spoke of rashes, headaches, nausea. People mentioned pets and livestock falling ill. One man insisted that he drove through a strange gas on State Route 170 that “nearly killed” him.

    If everyone in public office is saying that nothing is wrong, the residents of East Palestine argued, then why does so much seem wrong about the situation in their tiny community?

    The event

    Cory and Dawn White were sitting in the living room of their East Palestine home the day after the crash, still shaken by it, when they both began tasting something funny in the air. It reminded Cory of the sickly sweet barium sulfate that a patient might drink the night prior to a CT scan. Something was suddenly amiss. They decided it was time to get out of the house.

    The next morning, on Feb. 5, Republican Gov. Mike DeWine issued a formal evacuation order, which was expanded further on Feb. 6. The evacuation zone included the Whites’ home; by then, the couple had decamped to Darlington, Pennsylvania, the town to the east where Cory had grown up.

    Public officials had learned that the derailment included 11 cars’ worth of toxic chemicals — including various butyl acrylates, ethylene glycol (the main component of antifreeze) and five cars filled with vinyl chloride, a toxic compound linked to a form of liver cancer known as hepatic angiosarcoma. Those chemicals were either burning, leaking into the ground or venting into the air. The derailment site was highly unstable. Families were urged away; many pets, including the Whites’ two cats, were left behind.

    Norfolk Southern planned a controlled release and burn of the vinyl chloride around 3:30 p.m. on Feb. 6 — a critical moment for the village. “Based on current weather patterns and the expected flow of the smoke and fumes, anyone who remains in the red affected area is facing grave danger of death,” DeWine’s office wrote. “Anyone who remains in the yellow impacted area is at a high risk of severe injury, including skin burns and serious lung damage.”

    Railway responders dug trenches around the tankers and lit flares, igniting the highly toxic chemical and generating an astonishing black plume; images circulated nationwide. Depending on which photo you’re looking at, you can see the Whites’ house sitting quietly on West Martin Street against an apocalyptic backdrop. As photos made their way onto the internet, Dawn realized with a shock that she was looking at her own street when she noticed the tree in their front yard.

    The fate of that black plume and its chemical constituents is at the root of this story. Given what we know about vinyl chloride — that it is a lethal chemical that releases hydrogen chloride and phosgene when combusted — the village’s recurring questions revolve around the effects of that controlled burn. But with responsibility scattered across multiple state and federal agencies, information has been hard to come by, even for the mayor.

    The water supply

    East Palestine Water Superintendent Scott Wolfe has said that the village’s five public wells have not shown any detectable amounts of volatile organic compounds. Columbiana County Health Commissioner Wes Vins confirmed this at the Wednesday town hall. Vins noted that at least 29 private wells were tested by Thursday. “There is no indication of contamination,” he said.

    But there is reason for heightened concern: A 2019 Ohio EPA report on East Palestine’s drinking water source raised significant red flags about the depth of the aquifer that supplies the village’s five wells. “The aquifer is covered by 0 feet of low-permeability material, which provides no protection from contamination,” according to the report. “A chemical spill in this zone” — just west of the train derailment site — “poses a greater threat to the drinking water, so this area warrants more stringent protection.”

    This is where some of the disconnect on water safety may be coming from: hazards posed to the deeper water table, rather than more immediate drinking water. Kent State University geology researcher Kuldeep Singh said that groundwater moves at a slower rate than surface water in streams or rivers. That means any chemicals spilled from the derailment would spread much more slowly through groundwater, and it will take more time to know whether or not the drinking supply is truly safe.

    “We need to test groundwater for contamination, which has not been done so far below the spill site,” he said. “The longer we wait, the bigger … the problem will become. That testing is needed to map the [underground contaminant] plume, since the plume has reached the groundwater. This is very important. If it’s just in the vicinity [of the chemical spill], we don’t have to expand that groundwater sampling further. If we are late, then we have to continue expanding that groundwater sampling by putting in more wells.”

    Based on Singh’s reading of regional hydrology maps, the area’s groundwater also may move in different directions than the surface water. The radius of groundwater testing may expand in different ways than the typical routing of local streams or rivers. But, either way, as time marches on, that radius must expand for long-term health and safety.

    “I don’t think [local residents] have to be worried in the short term,” Singh said. “In the short term, of course, the [drinking] water supply is being monitored, and they know they are able to get fresh groundwater right now. They may be able to get fresh groundwater for the foreseeable future. But that is not what society should be concerned with. Society should be concerned with the long-term sustainability: How do we come out of this environmental disaster for the rest of our lives? That is a bigger question because we live in places for the rest of our lives — not just 10 days.”

    Air and soil

    Meanwhile, the U.S. EPA said Tuesday that none of the “continuous air monitoring locations” in East Palestine has shown exceptional levels of volatile organic compounds or carbon monoxide or hydrogen sulfide — the chemical categories that the agency specifically lists on its reports, however not necessarily the chemical categories that concern residents in this current context. The agency confirmed that “air monitoring for phosgene and hydrogen chloride was conducted while there was active fire at the derailment site, including prior to and during the controlled burn of vinyl chloride,” and it continued after the burn ended.

    “Phosgene has not been detected via air monitoring since [Feb. 6] based on telemetry data. Hydrogen chloride has not been detected via air monitoring since [Feb. 8],” the agency added, noting that air monitoring for those chemicals has ended. (The EPA has made all its analyses of the East Palestine disaster available online.)

    And yet most questions involve hydrogen chloride and phosgene to some extent — the ongoing sequence of events stemming from the controlled burn. Neither at the town hall nor in subsequent exchanges with news media has the EPA clarified its position on terminating the testing for those two chemicals while persisting in the testing for, e.g., carbon monoxide. As Samantha Montano, assistant professor of emergency management at Massachusetts Maritime Academy, put it this week in an MSNBC op-ed, “In any crisis, whether a pandemic, a hurricane or an economic crash, there are a few hard and fast rules emergency managers live by: communication, coordination, leadership and trust. If you don’t have these, your response won’t be effective.”

    This is an example of the central tension of the situation in East Palestine: There is no detectable phosgene at the specific air monitoring locations near the derailment site. But is that narrowly defined parameter sufficient for the village?

    Air monitoring is also ongoing at residents’ homes, under the aegis of environmental consulting firm CTEH — a contracting firm that has worked with Norfolk Southern on past derailments. The EPA is accompanying CTEH as a chaperone of sorts, with representatives standing outside residents’ homes while testing takes place, and the CTEH is asking homeowners to sign a document and agree “to indemnify, release and hold harmless” the firm from “any and all legal claims, including for personal injury or property damage” arising from the tests. Photos of the contract and its language have circulated online, drawing legal conjecture about the meaning of that word, “indemnify.”

    Already, there are at least six federal lawsuits filed against Norfolk Southern (read one here), and almost assuredly more litigation will come. Residents and outside spectators alike remain on high alert for anything that might shut down pathways to legal or financial relief in the future; like most everything else in the story of East Palestine, that narrative will unfold slowly over time.

    Kollar, with the Ohio EPA, said that soil is still being cleared on both sides of the railway tracks and within the centerline near the derailment site — and only “clean dirt” is being turned up so far. When Cory approached Kollar at the town hall, he asked specifically about soil tests; Kollar told him that Norfolk Southern had filled in the “burn pit” at the site. Kollar did say that the remediation phase may need to include groundwater wells or drainage ditches at the derailment site to catch and test groundwater — something that Singh no doubt would insist on.

    But Cory was not assuaged.

    “Anybody that says the site will be cleaned up is lying,” he said. “There is no plan to remove this contaminated soil. If you read the Remedial Action Work Plan [published by Norfolk Southern contractor Arcadis Inc.], it states that soil will be removed ‘where feasible,’ and where chemicals are observed discharging a trench or sump will be installed. [There is] no mention of removing the contamination nor the source soil.”

    Inside of these first two weeks since the derailment, residents are left with nothing more than emergency response officials’ statements and public documents. There’s a sense of urgency in the village pushed up against a long time horizon of disaster site remediation, and there’s no real way to reconcile those facts.

    Looking ahead

    Since the evacuation order was lifted on Feb. 8 and residents began filtering back to their homes, the village has now turned to a delicate balancing act of agitation and normalcy. Cory and Dawn returned home that night, eager to reunite with their cats (both of whom are fine).

    A city council meeting on Monday featured an uncanny mix of traditional council business and edgy updates on the state of the disaster recovery. Council members debated the merits of food truck vendor licensing fees, provided updates on an ongoing $6 million water line replacement project and addressed forthright resident questions about the chemical footprint embedded in their community.

    “Everybody’s frustrated, nervous and scared,” Conaway said at the meeting, his head in his hands at certain points during the evening. “But we’re slowly starting to get answers.”

    Given the perceived vacuum of clear information, a wealth of misinformation and outsized conjecture has proliferated on social media. On one hand, state and local officials are generally insisting that everything is all right. On the other hand, residents continue to complain of physical symptoms like headaches, rashes and nausea. What is anyone supposed to make of that?

    One woman summed up the quandary at the town hall: “We’re told there’s nothing in the water, and the air is fine, and yet — why are we getting sick?” This disconnect is a legitimate problem, and it’s uncertain how or when any sense of clarity may come into the picture. The mayor has repeatedly suggested that this process is far from over.

    “It was a dark day in this village’s history,” Conaway said this week. “It’s going to take some time for all of us to heal. We need to come together as a community. We’re going to do everything we can to make this right — and Norfolk Southern is going to have to pay for it.”

    The EPA has concurred, writing on Feb. 10 that “EPA has determined that Norfolk Southern Railway Company may be responsible under [federal Superfund law] for cleanup of the site or costs EPA has incurred in cleaning up the site.” Same goes for Cory White, who said, “This is not acceptable that the railroad can gamble with our lives and beg for forgiveness and not ask permission.”

    That’s where much of the village’s ire is presently directed: the railway operator. As Conaway spoke, he earned enthusiastic cheers from the gymnasium. He met the eyes of folks sitting on the risers, and he spoke with the conviction that someone needs to step up and act like a leader in this situation. This is a small town with a history of industry, where neighbors know one another, where most adults know the school district’s teachers — because they went to school here as kids themselves. East Palestine is a place where there’s no use in talking around a problem. Like Conaway said, the only way through this event is by confronting the truth head-on with one another.

    Norfolk Southern’s absence at the Wednesday town hall will not soon be forgotten.

    At one point, well into the proceedings, another woman in the crowd went so far as to request the microphone from Conaway and directly address the media throng: “We are a town that is grieving. Some of us are mad, some of us are sad, but we will get through this together.”

    Thanks to Lillian Barkley for copy editing this article.

    Integrated Tech Solutions is not a cult!

    Aesop Rock is the Thomas Pynchon of hip-hop, and both of those reclusive gentlemen have been profound inspirations in my life. Aes hasn’t toured since, what, 2016? And now he won’t even show his face in his music videos! He famously boasts the widest vocabulary of all rappers and tends to stitch incisive narratives and social commentary in between references to, e.g., Olive Garden’s unlimited breadsticks (“they kill us in the long run but unite us in the present”) and the weird diets of pigeons. You can find magic when blending the high brow with the low brow… Anyone who can’t help but get into the head-down woodshedding work of writing should take note of his career.

    Integrated Tech Solutions was my favorite album of 2023.

    Winter

    It’s a cold and gray afternoon in Northeast Ohio, typical early January fare sans snow. I was out walking our dogs (sometimes I walk them together, sometimes I walk them one at a time because they’re just so insane on their leashes; just now I walked them one at a time) and thinking about what I love about winter. These are small things I want to teach our daughter and our son. I love the way dead tree branches sway against a crisp white sky, brittle silhouettes. The bracing air. The collective pause of post-holiday new year abeyance. The hats and coats. The foggy glasses upon entering a warm home. The sense of promise contained in the year ahead (see also: dead tree branches awaiting spring).

    I most enjoy snow. That’s what got me thinking about writing about winter. The season itself is fine, but without snow it’s clearly at the bottom of the rankings. Snow is what makes winter so wintery.

    As I was walking Forrest I felt a pang for those nice, crunchy, snowy hikes through Cuyahoga Valley National Park. He and I have been on some good ones together, walking through bone-chilling cold to loop a great hike like Salt Run or Tree Farm. You need well packed snow, though: more snow than rain-soaked ground. That’s key. You need accumulation to make the hike as wonderful as it’s meant to be in winter.

    That’s in the very spirit of January: You need to gather some sense of energy, some shapeless form of momentum and excitement. The new year is not the old year, after all. I know not everything changes from one year to the next, but if you look close you’ll find that quite a lot does. You put in enough years and you’ll find that you’re a different person entirely. I feel this more in winter than in any other season.

    Bullets

    Everyone and their uncle has a newsletter these days, and I’ll admit I’ve been tempted to start something on Mailchimp or Substack or whatever. I’ve enjoyed putting together newsletters for media companies and brands over the years, and I’d probably get a kick out of packaging something of my own, for my own limited audience (hi, all three of you!).

    The prevailing format is one of bulleted lists: quick plain-text emails that just round up a few insightful quotes / product recommendations / business lessons / etc. in some sort of weekly delivery scheme. Often, these are the ones I enjoy most. (The only real “longform” newsletter I read anymore is Freddie deBoer’s incredible work. And maybe a few others.) They’re simple, straightforward, and actionable.

    So, maybe I’ll do that someday. Or maybe I’ll write something out longhand and send it off on a postcard to a select demographic. Print is not dead!

    In the meantime, here’s five things I’ve been thinking about or listening to or referencing in conversation or otherwise enjoying in late December:

    • Rocketbook: This “smart notebook” was a nice gift my team at work. I had no idea something like this existed! And while I’m practically tethered to my trusty Leuchtturm1917 hardcover A5 (dotted pages), having this intriguing digital option has been fun. Once we’re past the holidays here, I kind of envision this coming out during client meetings. Notes can then be sent right to my Google Drive, rather than getting lost among all my other personal writing in the actual old-school notebook.
    • Live! by Fela Kuti and Africa ’70, featuring Ginger Baker: I picked this up while doing some holiday shopping at My Mind’s Eye in Lakewood, Ohio (great record store, new deliveries strewn all over the place). Bae and I listened to it in the car, and I practically danced us off the highway. My hope is that our daughter takes to the polyrhythms and learns some new dance moves over the next few weeks.
    • Demon Copperhead by Barbara Kingsolver: I’ve been loving this book, following rave reviews from some close friends. Talk about “voicey”! That term came up all the time in my MFA program, and I grew to love it. No doubt, “being too voicey” can be a bad thing in writing, but you’ve got be somewhat “voicey” on the page to make a lasting impression (IMO, natch). Kingsolver is a gem. I’ve only read her nonfiction otherwise, but I’ve got The Poisonwood Bible on a table in the basement, and it will likely make a Q1 appearance.
    • The Browns have made the playoffs for only the second time in the last 20 years. I took in the Browns-Jets TNF game last night and loved just about every second of it. Not only did Joe Flacco & Co. put on an absolute clinic against the Jets, but I also had NY RB Breece Hall starting on my fantasy team. He got his tuddy and his beyond-expectations rushing yardage while not really doing much else to drag his garbage team anywhere close to beating the Browns, all of which made me happy. By the next time I write something here, I’ll either be the newly crowned and very obnoxious champion of my eight-years-running fantasy league or I’ll be licking runner-up wounds. I’m feeling as confident as ever.
    • What else? GMO Cookies. How about that? I’m the kind of cannabis user who just wants to dial in a singular preference among flower strains. Over the years I’ve edged happily into the indica-leaning cultivars heavy on myrcene and caryophyllene (GG4, Do-Si-Dos, GSC, etc.), and they’re all terrific. But lately I think I’ve found the one: GMO Cookies, a nice cross between GSC and ChemDawg (in fact, if I can find the GSC x Chem91 variation, even better). This is a perfect chemical profile to my tastes. Listen, I’m not super interested anymore in fucking around in dispensaries and taking chances on new hybrids or flashy brand-name strains. But feeling like a comfortable authority on a single strain? That’s nice. GMO Cookies gets the job done. If you have the chance, you simply must.

    2023 in books

    Another terrific year of reading in the books! While I read fewer titles this year than in any other since first tracking this sort of thing in 2018, I’d say this was a robust year of reading (and, N.B., a robust year of writing with the first draft of my own novel nearly complete, which in itself might explain the relative drop in pages read and all that).

    This was a good year in general. I spent more time golfing, working out, and, hey, being a father than I have in any other year prior. I was also in the privileged position of earning a sabbatical from work this fall, which led to, you guessed it, golfing, working out, being a father, and reading/writing at a frequency otherwise unattainable. The sabbatical was wonderful, and I think anyone 10+ years into their career (or, really, anyone at anytime) should do whatever they can to make it happen. Easy for me to say (and thank you again to my employer for making it so), but now that I’m on the far side of that break I think I’ll take it upon myself to engineer some time off every few years (some serious time off, I mean). Briefly, a reading-related highlight from that break: listening to The Netanyahus audiobook while driving to and from Nashville for three nights of Phish. I’ll look back on 2023 fondly.

    On the subject of books, let me say, too, that our daughter, now at 18 months, has been a true reader from the jump. She’s got her favorites, no doubt (The Night Before Christmas, CoComelon 5-Minute Stories, Good Night, Sleep Tight! Shhh…, The Pout-Pout Fish, various flip books), but she’s open to anything, including, amazingly, a National Geographic book on rain forests that she picked out and in fact insisted upon at Barnes & Noble one day. She has multiple bookshelves in our house, and when we drop her off at daycare in the morning her first stop is their bookshelves, whereupon she settles in for the day and, if she’s anything like her old man, clears her head a bit over a good book. We are nurturing this love of books, and I couldn’t be happier about how that will shape her childhood.

    I’m eager to share my own love of books with her as she gets a bit older, and perhaps I’m also dreading the day she tells me she’s just not into DeLillo or Pynchon or any of that boring stuff.

    My favorite novels this year were Angels, Butcher’s Crossing, The Crossing, The Netanyahus, and, perhaps my No. 1 favorite on the year, That Old Ace in the Hole. I’m mid-read on two other titans as I flip into 2024: Demon Copperhead and Blood Meridian. More on those titles when I write this post next year.

    My favorite nonfiction book, easily, was The Stranger in the Woods. This may become one of those books I recommend as often as possible, one of those books I gift freely (the current book being A Whale Hunt by Robert Sullivan).

    Here’s the list:

    Angels by Denis Johnson

    The Dog of the South by Charles Portis*

    This Naked Mind by Annie Grace

    2022 Best American Essays ed. by Alexander Chee

    Butcher’s Crossing by John Williams

    Fat City by Leonard Gardner

    Fiskadoro by Denis Johnson

    American Chestnut by Susan Freinkel

    The Nix by Nathan Hill

    There There by Tommy Orange

    All the Pretty Horses by Cormac McCarthy

    The Crossing by Cormac McCarthy

    The Little Friend by Donna Tartt

    Haven by Emma Donoghue

    Masters of Atlantis by Charles Portis*

    Chain Gang All-Stars by Nana Kwame Adeji-Brenyah

    Liberation Day by George Saunders

    Be Mine by Richard Ford

    The Keep by Jennifer Egan

    The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck by Mark Manson

    We Hold Our Breath by Micah Fields

    The Wager by David Grann

    Breath by James Nestor

    Work by Thich Nhat Hanh

    Peace Is Every Breath by Thich Nhat Hanh

    The Netanyahus by Joshua Cohen

    Galactic Pot-Healer by Philip K. Dick

    The Quick & The Dead by Joy Williams

    Running Dog by Don DeLillo

    The Stranger in the Woods by Michael Finkel

    That Old Ace in the Hole by Annie Proulx

    *reread, both of which being Charles Portis